I was at the Library yesterday and met up with my Study Buddies to get some cramming in for the exam that we have today and the library was having a book sale.
As many books as you could fit into a paper shopping bag for 5 bucks! So I stuff my big to the gills with a variety of hard cover and soft cover books. I can't wiat to have some time to read them. I laughed aloud to myself as I picked a few Harlequin Romance books. What the heck...its been ages since I've read any of those, lol. I think I managed to put 25 books in my bag...no to find the time to read them all.
I just love when you find a deal like that!
Monday, January 26, 2009
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Goals for 2009
So I have been thinking about Goals for 2009 and I have decided that I need to make them public for all of you to view. Its just a start and some of these will happen...but it will take time.
1. Lose 20+ pounds
2. Graduate from Nursing School
3. Move out of my parents
4. Make a dent in my debt
5. Read 50 books (2 down 48 to go)
6. Take a trip out of the state
7. Get a job in the nursing field
8. Ride my bike 500 miles
9. Walk 1000 miles (daily walking doesn't count, i mean on a treadmill, bike path, etc., making myself go for a walk I mean)
10. Make 365 handmade cards
11. Scrap 52 pages
12. See 10 concerts (1 down, 9 to go)
13. Publish 100 blogs for the year
14. Learn 30 new recipes (If anyone has any good ones, send them my way!)
Its just a start and some of these goals are way easier than the others. I'll try to keep these updated when changes happen.
1. Lose 20+ pounds
2. Graduate from Nursing School
3. Move out of my parents
4. Make a dent in my debt
5. Read 50 books (2 down 48 to go)
6. Take a trip out of the state
7. Get a job in the nursing field
8. Ride my bike 500 miles
9. Walk 1000 miles (daily walking doesn't count, i mean on a treadmill, bike path, etc., making myself go for a walk I mean)
10. Make 365 handmade cards
11. Scrap 52 pages
12. See 10 concerts (1 down, 9 to go)
13. Publish 100 blogs for the year
14. Learn 30 new recipes (If anyone has any good ones, send them my way!)
Its just a start and some of these goals are way easier than the others. I'll try to keep these updated when changes happen.
Inauguration
So I must admit that while watching the inauguration on TV yesterday, I was getting a little teary eyed. I don't know why, but I was caught a little off guard I suppose. I am sad to admit, but I guess I never really cared about the last few elections (although I did vote). I don't know why this one means so much. I could care less if he a black man. I will admit that I never thought I'd see a black man this soon in office in my lifetime. I forsaw it coming, but I thought maybe it wouldn't be until I was in my 50's. I am ready for change, I can't wait to see what happens next. Way to go Barack!
Here is a pic of me sporting my Obama Shirt yesterday:
Here is a pic of me sporting my Obama Shirt yesterday:
Monday, January 19, 2009
Do you ever?
Do you ever wonder when you are in a large crowd or see a large crowd of people, think to yourself...this would be the perfect time for terrorists to knock out a large number of people?
I had this conversation at work with a co-worker and she says that she thinks this too. My boss overheard us and told us we were crazy and we shouldn't waste our time worrying about such things. It's not that worry, but I think about it. For example, how perfect would it be for someone to drop a bomb on us or have a shooting spree when we are downtown watching the fire works. The fireworks in Detroit draws a crowd of over a million people, it is loud, it kind of chaotic...no one would even know what hit them. We are all too engrossed in fireworks show and taking in the sites, that would we even know what hit us?
I know I am probably a little weird, but does anyone else feel like this? Do you ever think about it?
Let me know...My Co-worker and I can't be the only one's.
I had this conversation at work with a co-worker and she says that she thinks this too. My boss overheard us and told us we were crazy and we shouldn't waste our time worrying about such things. It's not that worry, but I think about it. For example, how perfect would it be for someone to drop a bomb on us or have a shooting spree when we are downtown watching the fire works. The fireworks in Detroit draws a crowd of over a million people, it is loud, it kind of chaotic...no one would even know what hit them. We are all too engrossed in fireworks show and taking in the sites, that would we even know what hit us?
I know I am probably a little weird, but does anyone else feel like this? Do you ever think about it?
Let me know...My Co-worker and I can't be the only one's.
Saturday, January 10, 2009
City in Colour
I went with a girlfriend of mine to see City in Colour last night. We saw a very great acts prior to the headliner too. I am so stoked that they played my favorite song.
Here is a link to a video of the song:
http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&VideoID=47617106
Lyrics to "The Girl"
I wish I could do better by you,
Cos that's what you deserve.
You sacrifice so much of your life,
In order for this to work.
While I'm off chasing my own dreams,
Sailing around the world,
Please know that I'm yours to keep,
My beautiful girl.
And when you cry a piece of my heart dies,
Knowing that I may have been the cause,
If you were to leave, fulfill someone elses dreams,
I think I might totally be lost.
But you don't ask for no diamond rings,
No delicate string of pearls,
That's why I wrote this song to sing,
My beautiful girl
Here is a link to a video of the song:
http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&VideoID=47617106
Lyrics to "The Girl"
I wish I could do better by you,
Cos that's what you deserve.
You sacrifice so much of your life,
In order for this to work.
While I'm off chasing my own dreams,
Sailing around the world,
Please know that I'm yours to keep,
My beautiful girl.
And when you cry a piece of my heart dies,
Knowing that I may have been the cause,
If you were to leave, fulfill someone elses dreams,
I think I might totally be lost.
But you don't ask for no diamond rings,
No delicate string of pearls,
That's why I wrote this song to sing,
My beautiful girl
Friday, January 9, 2009
Ugh
I feel so fat this week! I have no idea why. I almost wish I was sick again because I felt better about myself then, rofl.
WW is going OK and it could be going better than it has been, but I am trying. I just need to try harder and commit to it 100% of the time.
I love how when I weigh myself (naked of course) in the morning and then weigh myself again before I go to bed (in my PJ's), I can gain 8 pounds. And then I can wake up in the morning the next day and lose the 8 pounds, rofl.
I play such a mind game with myself. When I lose lb. or 2, I feel all sexy and when I gain I feel fat and disgusting. I just wish it were easier to lose weight. I just need to try harder.
WW is going OK and it could be going better than it has been, but I am trying. I just need to try harder and commit to it 100% of the time.
I love how when I weigh myself (naked of course) in the morning and then weigh myself again before I go to bed (in my PJ's), I can gain 8 pounds. And then I can wake up in the morning the next day and lose the 8 pounds, rofl.
I play such a mind game with myself. When I lose lb. or 2, I feel all sexy and when I gain I feel fat and disgusting. I just wish it were easier to lose weight. I just need to try harder.
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
The Great Lunch Debate
Everyday its the same debate when I am at work...what do I WANT for lunch? What I ultimately want and what I SHOULD eat are always contradicting each other. I know what I should be eating, but what I want is always tugging at me. I hate it. I wish I had a personal chef that could make whatever I wanted in a "healthy" way. I should just pack lunch, but I HAVE to get out of the office. I am trying to be budget friendly so packing my lunch would be great, but since it is cold, where would I go to eat it? I would eat at my desk, but that doesn't get me out of the office. I could eat at my desk and go to the store for my "lunch break", but then I wind up buying stuff that I really don't need. Its a viscious circle. Today I opted for Taco Bell...and it was a bust.
I love eating Subway, but I never feel satisfied when I am done. I know that I should be eating Turkey or Ham (which I often do), but the meatball sub rocks my socks. Darn Jared...I don't know how he did it. I'd get so bored.
The cheesy bacon gordita Crunch was gross. I was so disappointed. Then I made the mistake of looking at the nutritonal content of it and I about cried. Florine Mark would be so disappointed with me. I should have just went with 3 soft taco's for 12 WW points. At least then I'd "almost" feel satusfied my lunch choice. DARN DARN DARN....I need to get my will power back, I've been a total WW slacker this week.
Ah...Wendy's I love you so. I only eat 3 things there and they all come off of the 99 cent menu. Jr. Bacon cheeseburgers are one of my favorites, but I pick off the healthy part (the lettuce and the tomato). They are 9 WW by the way. The Doublestack is a little more filling and usually makes me happy, and its 9 points too. And fries...who doesn't like Wendy's fries. I have sacrafied one of my VERY favorites and that is the Frosty...why does all of the stuff that taste's so good are so bad for you.
I could always go to my parents house for lunch and have a sandwich and I do that often too. I like when my mom cooks and there are leftovers (that I like). Hmm...can't beat home cooking. I could live off of grilled cheese sandwiches, tomato soup and mac and cheese. But Florine, doesn't like those foods too much either...argh. Am I supposed to eat a salad for lunch? Yuck...that just doesn't "do" it for me.
And then again the cycle starts again when I decide what to have tomorrow.
I love eating Subway, but I never feel satisfied when I am done. I know that I should be eating Turkey or Ham (which I often do), but the meatball sub rocks my socks. Darn Jared...I don't know how he did it. I'd get so bored.
The cheesy bacon gordita Crunch was gross. I was so disappointed. Then I made the mistake of looking at the nutritonal content of it and I about cried. Florine Mark would be so disappointed with me. I should have just went with 3 soft taco's for 12 WW points. At least then I'd "almost" feel satusfied my lunch choice. DARN DARN DARN....I need to get my will power back, I've been a total WW slacker this week.
Ah...Wendy's I love you so. I only eat 3 things there and they all come off of the 99 cent menu. Jr. Bacon cheeseburgers are one of my favorites, but I pick off the healthy part (the lettuce and the tomato). They are 9 WW by the way. The Doublestack is a little more filling and usually makes me happy, and its 9 points too. And fries...who doesn't like Wendy's fries. I have sacrafied one of my VERY favorites and that is the Frosty...why does all of the stuff that taste's so good are so bad for you.
I could always go to my parents house for lunch and have a sandwich and I do that often too. I like when my mom cooks and there are leftovers (that I like). Hmm...can't beat home cooking. I could live off of grilled cheese sandwiches, tomato soup and mac and cheese. But Florine, doesn't like those foods too much either...argh. Am I supposed to eat a salad for lunch? Yuck...that just doesn't "do" it for me.
And then again the cycle starts again when I decide what to have tomorrow.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
What I want...
I stole this from Facebook. Kristi sent it to me, I thought it was pretty funny.
1. Put your MP3 player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer (questions below)
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS (option to put the name of artist in brackets next to it)
4. Tag at least 10 friends who might enjoy doing the game as well as the person you got the note from.
1) IF SOMEONE SAYS "FUCK YOU!" YOU SAY:
Us (Regina Spektor)
2) WHAT'S THE BEST THING THAT'S EVER HAPPENED TO YOU?
Hey Ya (Outkast)
3) WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT'S EVER HAPPENED TO YOU?
Behind the Wheel (Depeche Mode)
4) WHAT WILL OPRAH'S NEXT SHOW BE CALLED?
No No No (Paolo Nutini)
5) WHAT WILL OBAMA'S FIRST EXECUTIVE ORDER BE?
Chasing Cars (Snow Patrol)
6) IF YOU COULD SAY ONE THING TO THE PERSON YOU LOVE, IT WOULD BE?
Laid (James)
7) IF YOU COULD SAY ONE THING TO THE PERSON YOU HATE IT WOULD BE?
Tears Dry on Their Own (Amy Winehouse)
8) WHAT WOULD YOUR AUTOBIOGRAPHY BE CALLED?
Crazy (Aerosmith)
9) WHAT IS LOVE?
Say It Right (Nelly Furtado)
10) WHAT IS HATE?
Condemnation (Depeche Mode)
11) WHAT IS YOUR BEST TRAIT?
In Our Nature (Jose Gonzales)
12) WHAT IS YOUR WORST TRAIT?
Proud Mary (Tina Turner)
13) WHERE WILL YOU BE IN FIVE YEARS?
Mouthwash (Kate Nash)
14) HOW DO YOUR FRIENDS DESCRIBE YOU?
Clocks (Coldplay)
15) WHAT DOES THE FUTURE HOLD FOR YOU?
This Ain't A Scene (Fall out boy)
16) WHAT DOES THE FUTURE HOLD FOR YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Welcome to the Jungle (Gun's and Rose's)
17) WHAT DO YOU WISH YOUR LOVER WOULD WHISPER IN YOUR EAR?
Incredible (Madonna)
18) WHAT WILL SAVE THE WORLD?
Rhythm Divine (Enrique Iglesias)
19) WHAT IS LOVE?
Vindicated (Dashboard Confessional)
20) WHAT IS HATE?
You're my Best Friend (Queen)
21) WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST STRENGTH?
I Love (Tom T Hall)
22) WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST WEAKNESS?
What I Am (Edie Brickell)
23) WHAT DO YOU DREAM ABOUT?
Tell Me Baby (Red Hot Chili Peppers)
24) WHAT GIVES YOU NIGHTMARES?
The Fear You Won't Fall (Joshua Radin)
25) WILL YOU EVER FIND 'THE ONE'?
The Joker (Steve Miller Band)
26) WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?
Head Over Feet (Alanis Morissette)
27) WHAT MAKES YOU SAD?
Maybe I'm Amazed (Paul McCartney)
28) WHAT'S THE STUPIDEST THING IN THE WORLD?
Sweet Emotion (Aerosmith)
29) WHAT DO PEOPLE LOVE ABOUT YOU?
Trouble (Ray LaMontagne)
30) WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
What I Want (Daughtry)
Tee Hee, some of these are funny!
1. Put your MP3 player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer (questions below)
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS (option to put the name of artist in brackets next to it)
4. Tag at least 10 friends who might enjoy doing the game as well as the person you got the note from.
1) IF SOMEONE SAYS "FUCK YOU!" YOU SAY:
Us (Regina Spektor)
2) WHAT'S THE BEST THING THAT'S EVER HAPPENED TO YOU?
Hey Ya (Outkast)
3) WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT'S EVER HAPPENED TO YOU?
Behind the Wheel (Depeche Mode)
4) WHAT WILL OPRAH'S NEXT SHOW BE CALLED?
No No No (Paolo Nutini)
5) WHAT WILL OBAMA'S FIRST EXECUTIVE ORDER BE?
Chasing Cars (Snow Patrol)
6) IF YOU COULD SAY ONE THING TO THE PERSON YOU LOVE, IT WOULD BE?
Laid (James)
7) IF YOU COULD SAY ONE THING TO THE PERSON YOU HATE IT WOULD BE?
Tears Dry on Their Own (Amy Winehouse)
8) WHAT WOULD YOUR AUTOBIOGRAPHY BE CALLED?
Crazy (Aerosmith)
9) WHAT IS LOVE?
Say It Right (Nelly Furtado)
10) WHAT IS HATE?
Condemnation (Depeche Mode)
11) WHAT IS YOUR BEST TRAIT?
In Our Nature (Jose Gonzales)
12) WHAT IS YOUR WORST TRAIT?
Proud Mary (Tina Turner)
13) WHERE WILL YOU BE IN FIVE YEARS?
Mouthwash (Kate Nash)
14) HOW DO YOUR FRIENDS DESCRIBE YOU?
Clocks (Coldplay)
15) WHAT DOES THE FUTURE HOLD FOR YOU?
This Ain't A Scene (Fall out boy)
16) WHAT DOES THE FUTURE HOLD FOR YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Welcome to the Jungle (Gun's and Rose's)
17) WHAT DO YOU WISH YOUR LOVER WOULD WHISPER IN YOUR EAR?
Incredible (Madonna)
18) WHAT WILL SAVE THE WORLD?
Rhythm Divine (Enrique Iglesias)
19) WHAT IS LOVE?
Vindicated (Dashboard Confessional)
20) WHAT IS HATE?
You're my Best Friend (Queen)
21) WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST STRENGTH?
I Love (Tom T Hall)
22) WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST WEAKNESS?
What I Am (Edie Brickell)
23) WHAT DO YOU DREAM ABOUT?
Tell Me Baby (Red Hot Chili Peppers)
24) WHAT GIVES YOU NIGHTMARES?
The Fear You Won't Fall (Joshua Radin)
25) WILL YOU EVER FIND 'THE ONE'?
The Joker (Steve Miller Band)
26) WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?
Head Over Feet (Alanis Morissette)
27) WHAT MAKES YOU SAD?
Maybe I'm Amazed (Paul McCartney)
28) WHAT'S THE STUPIDEST THING IN THE WORLD?
Sweet Emotion (Aerosmith)
29) WHAT DO PEOPLE LOVE ABOUT YOU?
Trouble (Ray LaMontagne)
30) WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
What I Want (Daughtry)
Tee Hee, some of these are funny!
Hindsight
So I've been talking with the other girl in the office today about relationships and the past and everything else. I've come to realize how important hindsight is.
As I look back on my relationship with my ex, everything seems so clear. It was so obvious how miserable we were. We treated each other SO badly. It took the littlest things to set each other off and turned into something ugly and monstrous when it did. I'd get so angry about the dumbest shit and it wasn't even the things that I was mad about, that I was REALLY mad about. It was this whole big culmination of everything else and that one little thing set it all into motion.
I am embarrassed to think about how I behaved and how "mean" I got. In hindsight, it was so unnecessary. Why did I do that? I'd like to say that it was because I was trying to protect myself, but deep down I always knew I was just trying to make him as miserable as I was. Now don't get me wrong, I am not saying that I am/was at total fault in that failed relationship, but I didn't make things any easier. There were times when I hated him and no matter what he had done or not done, I don't think it would have made a difference. He was just not the right person for me and it was a mess.
I could have ignored the dumb shit and focused on what was so big and bothering me. I am not sure if it would have made a difference at all if I would have acted differently and at this point in my life I am not going to dwell on it.
I look at other people around me and I know that they are just as miserable as I was. I am so grateful that I got out. So grateful that its over. I know it is difficult and it hard, but don't we owe it to ourselves and our partners to treat each other nicely? If we can't do that, it needs to end. There is nothing worth it in the world to keep on keeping on in misery. End it...you'll be happy in the long run. Trust me, I know. If you don't look at your partner and think "sigh" that he/she is the best, why not? Did you ever? Can you?
I look at Joe all of the time and think "sigh", he is a great person. Where has he been all of my life? Everything is good. I am warm and fuzzy inside.
I think of hindsight and the weird part is, I don't feel like I can make mistakes this time around. Its a different kind of relationship that I have with Joe and it feels great. I don't ever feel like I have to watch what I say, because I never have anything mean to say. I never think mean things. I never feel lost. I never have been this happy. Who knew...
As I look back on my relationship with my ex, everything seems so clear. It was so obvious how miserable we were. We treated each other SO badly. It took the littlest things to set each other off and turned into something ugly and monstrous when it did. I'd get so angry about the dumbest shit and it wasn't even the things that I was mad about, that I was REALLY mad about. It was this whole big culmination of everything else and that one little thing set it all into motion.
I am embarrassed to think about how I behaved and how "mean" I got. In hindsight, it was so unnecessary. Why did I do that? I'd like to say that it was because I was trying to protect myself, but deep down I always knew I was just trying to make him as miserable as I was. Now don't get me wrong, I am not saying that I am/was at total fault in that failed relationship, but I didn't make things any easier. There were times when I hated him and no matter what he had done or not done, I don't think it would have made a difference. He was just not the right person for me and it was a mess.
I could have ignored the dumb shit and focused on what was so big and bothering me. I am not sure if it would have made a difference at all if I would have acted differently and at this point in my life I am not going to dwell on it.
I look at other people around me and I know that they are just as miserable as I was. I am so grateful that I got out. So grateful that its over. I know it is difficult and it hard, but don't we owe it to ourselves and our partners to treat each other nicely? If we can't do that, it needs to end. There is nothing worth it in the world to keep on keeping on in misery. End it...you'll be happy in the long run. Trust me, I know. If you don't look at your partner and think "sigh" that he/she is the best, why not? Did you ever? Can you?
I look at Joe all of the time and think "sigh", he is a great person. Where has he been all of my life? Everything is good. I am warm and fuzzy inside.
I think of hindsight and the weird part is, I don't feel like I can make mistakes this time around. Its a different kind of relationship that I have with Joe and it feels great. I don't ever feel like I have to watch what I say, because I never have anything mean to say. I never think mean things. I never feel lost. I never have been this happy. Who knew...
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Decisions...choices
So I have been thinking a lot about the future lately and what it holds for me and I have some BIG decisions to make soon.
Everything hangs in the balance of school and each decision I make from that point on will potentially affect the rest of my life.
I want a family...but I want to travel and see the world.
I want to do some awesome medical things, like help other's in a foreign country...but I want a family.
I want some space of my own...but I want Joe to ask me to move in someday.
I want to finish my bachelor degree in nursing...but I want to avoid schoolbooks for as long as possibly can again.
I have some tough choices to make in the spring, I am sure I'll know what to do when that time comes.
Everything hangs in the balance of school and each decision I make from that point on will potentially affect the rest of my life.
I want a family...but I want to travel and see the world.
I want to do some awesome medical things, like help other's in a foreign country...but I want a family.
I want some space of my own...but I want Joe to ask me to move in someday.
I want to finish my bachelor degree in nursing...but I want to avoid schoolbooks for as long as possibly can again.
I have some tough choices to make in the spring, I am sure I'll know what to do when that time comes.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
2009...here I come!
Happy new year everyone!
I am starting this year off right and plan on blogging just a little but more than I have been. I really enjoyed going back over the past year and seeing how I've grown. I loved reading about how I felt and how much life has changed for me.
2008 was a year to learn from and a year that I will never forget, for good and bad reasons. It kicked me down at its lowest and rose me up as well. It brought me sadness and heartache, but also brought me happiness and love. It brought me strength in times when I was at my weakest and taught me to move on even though there doesn't seem like much to move on for.
I like the idea of resolutions, I think that they give us something to shoot for. I like the idea of being accountable for "you" and I have a few goals for 2009 that I'd like to share:
1. Love more
2. Live more
3. Learn more
I wish you all a blessed 2009 and hope you will take my resolutions and use them for yourself.
I am starting this year off right and plan on blogging just a little but more than I have been. I really enjoyed going back over the past year and seeing how I've grown. I loved reading about how I felt and how much life has changed for me.
2008 was a year to learn from and a year that I will never forget, for good and bad reasons. It kicked me down at its lowest and rose me up as well. It brought me sadness and heartache, but also brought me happiness and love. It brought me strength in times when I was at my weakest and taught me to move on even though there doesn't seem like much to move on for.
I like the idea of resolutions, I think that they give us something to shoot for. I like the idea of being accountable for "you" and I have a few goals for 2009 that I'd like to share:
1. Love more
2. Live more
3. Learn more
I wish you all a blessed 2009 and hope you will take my resolutions and use them for yourself.
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