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Thursday, April 16, 2009

Almost a year later....

How different my life is from a year ago!
I think back on what it was like a year ago and I am SO much happier now than I was a year ago. I am happy to report that I rarely think of my ex and when I do its not with anything but question about something at the house or some bill I got in the mail.
I do miss my old house though...terribly. With spring coming up I want to see the flowers that I planted and to play in the dirt. I want to sit outside on the patio that I never had a chance to really enjoy...to sit on the patio furniture MY parents bought us as a wedding present. I miss the quiet of the house and the solitude of curling up on the couch with a good book. As I think back on it, I did live with Chris, but I was so alone...a lot of the time. I actually enjoyed it and I miss that now. I miss having a space that is mine the most though, which is why I miss the house. I love my parents to pieces, but they constantly have the TV or the vacuum running. Joe too is the same way...always has the TV on when he gets home from work. I miss quiet...
I do get plenty of opportunity for quiet before Joe gets home, so its nice. I like having the chance to clear my head and listen to the sounds of the house settling. I'll admit though...that having the quiet leads me to a nap some of the time.
School is winding its way down to the end as well. I can't believe I've made it! Despite all of the crap that I've been through I've done it and done it well! I owe a debt of gratitude to my study group for keeping me on my toes in theory. We are all taking a trip to Florida the week after pinning!
I have grown so much as nurse in the past year, that I often surprise myself with all that I know. There is a TON of things I don't know too. I am so proud of myself having successfully managed a case load of 5 patients on the floor that I am currently on and to have done it with ease really. Yes it was busy and at time hectic...but I did it! I took the load of patients that the nurses on the floor take...whew! I manage to suprise myself with all that I can handle on a daily basis. Only 2 more weeks left!!!
My love life is fantastic! Next week will be a year from a our 1st date! Things are going great. I do wonder though...if he'll ask one of the big question's soon? Only time will tell, I am not anxious to push either issue, but I do wonder about it.
In the next few months, my life will change tremendously and I embrace what lies ahead...I can't wait!