Thursday, January 17, 2008

Stop the Insanity!!!

So I have spent the past 2 weeks doing my clincial rotation at a Psychiatric hospital. It has been interesting to say the least.
I have had some very friendly and indepth conversations with lots of patients and i am suprised at how willing they are to share. Their honesty is almost too much to take sometimes.
I was a believer at first that a lot of mental illness was just that, all in their heads, but after spending some time in a facility it isn't. I truly believe that a lot of it is biological. But should they all be put on drugs? Shouldn't we all be put on some types of drugs?
I'll be one of the 1st people to admit that I get depressed, I get angry and I have self esteem issues, but isn't that normal to some extent?
We are all crazy, some of them just hide better than other's I suppose.

Friday, January 4, 2008

100 Things about me

100. Pink is my favorite color
99. I love doing home improvement projects
98. I don't care WHICH way the toilet paper rolls goes on the roll, just as long as gets put back on.
97. I am a horrible typist
96. I love to pick up corn with my mashed potatoes and eat them together.
95. I am scared that I will die young of heart disease or cancer
94. I can't ever fall asleep in bed if I don't go to bed before my husband.
93. I hate most vegetables
92. I can put my whole fist in my mouth
91. My cat can always make my day brighter
90. Licking envelopes is hella nasty
89. I want to be a size 12
88. I fear that I am turning into my mother
87. Scrabble is one of my favorite games
86. I love hanging out with my grandparents
85. I have a potty mouth that is very hard to control and I randomly drop the "f" bomb without even realizing that I do it.
84. I can swallow pills without anything to drink
83. Not that I ever want anything to happen to anyone in my family, but I dream about the day when I can start my own family traditions for the holidays.
82. I love the sun, but am afraid to go out in it after my melanoma scare.
81. When I think about eating meat, it makes me want to I don't think about it and enjoy my hamburger.
80. I sniff my nose after I am done sneezing, that's when you can tell I am done with my sneezing attack. Hold the bless you's until you hear the sniff.
79. Cracking my knuckles make my hands feel good.
78. I wish my mother would quit smoking and be more concerned about her health.
77. When I fight with my husband I HAVE to win, I am mean and bring up all kinds of things that are irrelevant.
76. I want to go on a romantic vacation and kiss under a waterfall.
75. Credit cards are NOT good for me to have.
74. I can't refrain from biting into hard candies or suckers.
73. Pizza is the perfect food, I could eat it everyday for the rest of my life.
72. I wish I had long skinny fingers, instead of chubby stumpy ones.
71. I swear at everyone when I am driving in the car.
70. Texting seems so impersonal, just call me damn it, it takes me 5 minutes to type 3 words.
69. I HATE putting on lotion, it feels so gross.
68. I wish it was acceptable to walk around without shirts like men do, what's the big deal, they are just boobs.
67. Losing 30 pounds, seems impossible, but I HAVE to do it, I hate being labeled as Obese, i'd be fine with overweight. I think the BMI chart is crap, I'll never be 110 lbs.
66. I wear a size 9 shoe, shouldn't I be taller than 5'2"?
65. I love pictures, taking them, looking at them, being in them...I have a poor memory and they help me relive the fun times.
64. I love the smell of Stayzon Black ink pads...everyone thinks I am hella weird because of this.
63. I love to bake...but never do anymore because my husband thinks carbs are the devil.
62. I love that I have "special" activities that I can do with both of my parents. My mom loves to stamp and scrap with me and My dad and I love to go biking riding and walking together. I call each of them separate things like daddy daughter princess time and mom and princess time.
61. Gardeing in the summer is one of my favorite things to do. I don't really like getting all dirty, but I love the result of all of the pretty flowers.
60. Given the opportunity, I could stay up all night playing scrabble or pinochle online.
59. I am obsessed with lip balm of any kind whether it be chapstick, bonnie bell or carmex.
58. One day I hope to travel to Asia.
57. I wish I knew how to put on make-up well. I love how dramatically makeup can change the way a person looks.
56. When I laugh a lot I have to use an inhaler because I can't breathe.
55. I always notice a flaw about someone 1st off rather than noticing the good things about them.
54. I tear up when someone wins a lot of money on a game show.
53. Someday, I hope to have 3 kids. I think I will be an awesome mom.
52. I have vowed to NEVER own a minivan.
51. I am a nursing student at OCC and I will graduate in May of 2009!!!
50. I can't get my nails to grow long at all, they are very weak and bend when you touch them.
49. I have had 9 surgeries in my life in which I have been put under; my gall bladder, a double bunionectomy on my feet, my tonsils, girly stuff, my wisdom teeth, bone marrow donor, my outie belly button popped and needed to turned to an innie, tubes in my ears, which would fall out and also needed to be surgically removed.
I've had 2 that I haven't been put under for; ingrown toenails and removal of my melanoma in my boob.
48. I always want to call and donate money when I see the staving kids in Africa commercials, but never do.
47. I HATE writing in cursive, my penmanship sucks
46. Instead of writing this, I should be reading my schoolbooks.
45. I love the smell of fresh cut grass and dryer sheets.
44. I love to read, when I read a book (not school books) I usually can't put it down and will finish it in 1-2 days.
43. Bad spellers make me crazy.
42. The phone ALWAYS rings when I am trying to take a nap.
41. Popcorn and snowcaps together is my favorite thing to get at the movies.
40. I can't believe how many people have never donated is SO important.
39. When I was kid I had 13 barbies and 2 Ken's. Ken was always naked and making out with one of the barbies. I also used to LOVE to cut off their hair.
38. I am ALWAYS cold, even when it 80 degrees. Something is wrong with me!
37. I have a love/hate relationship with my scale, I weigh myself 3 times a week and am usually discouraged.
36. I too wish could be one of those girls with funky style, but I'm not. I've tried, but I fail miserabely and end up looking like a "tried" too hard.
35. I can't type well, but I can use the number section and the numbers on a calculator with my eyes closed and come out 99% perfect everytime.
34. I've always wanted to learn how to ride a unicycle.
33. Why is it, that I can rollerskate, but I can't rollerblade for the life of me. I can skate, but I can't stop, so I am afraid to try them again.
32. I buy scratch off lottery tickets and always dream about what I would do with the $$ before I scratch them off. I never win...but I'll keep buying them and dreaming of what I would do with the cash.
31. I love to watch love stories.
30. I convinced my hubby to go to yoga with me and now he goes all of the time and I NEVER go. I feel so fat and out of shape when I go.
29. I hate low rise pants and seeing other people's buttcrack, it is so disgusting.
28. I wish it were warm enough in Michigan to wear flip-flop all of the time.
27. I LOVE peanutbutter and nutella sandwiches.
26. If someone asks me ONE MORE TIME, when I am gonna have kids I am gonna scream. Like it is not obvious that I am busting my ass right now with nursing school and 2 jobs, yeah lets add a baby into that mix right now...I don't think so, use your flipping heads people!
25. I have never had a "buzz" when drinking. I drink, drink, drink feel nothing and then BAM drunk off my ass.
24. I pick my nose all of time, but only in the privacy of my own home.
23. When I graduate from school and I get a job, I am going to get the "model" teeth I have always wanted.
22. I'll never understand the freaky-deaky people who mutilate themselves and expect not to have people stare at them or expect that they can live a normal life.
21. When I hear words to love songs...I always wonder if anyone has ever felt that way about me.
20. I can't jump into a pool without plugging my nose.
19. I hate filing my bills.
18. I am one of those people that NEED to be needed by other people.
17. I think watermelon with the seeds tasted better than the ones without.
16. I love most reality TV. I especially love, ANTM, Project runway, Survivor, Amazing Race, Dancing with the Stars and Top Chef.
15. I hate to Floss my teeth, my gums always bleed.
14. I am a clutter-aholic and am trying super hard not to be, it's SO hard. I am sentimental and don't want to throw anything away.
13. I want to get a dog when I am done with school and can me home more.
12. The smells of baby powder, pachouli, celery and cucumber melon make me want to gag.
11. I have never learned how to swim with the right technique, but I can swim 3/4 of mile across a lake.
10. My feet fall alseep when I use the ellipitcal, bike or treadmill.
9. I love old things, old cars, music, people, clothes and stories. I think growing up in the 60's would have been fun.
8. I love to shop. Although I often buy things that I don't need because they are "on sale". I hate returning things to the store.
7. I almost cry everytime I see a mom with a child that has a disease, because I know how hard it must be for her and how hard that child's life is. Everytime I see one, I give them that "knowing" smile, in order to fight back my tears, then I have to look away or I'll lose it.
6. The Giving Tree is one of the best books ever written. There is so much be to learned from that children's book.
5. I love going to the Salvation Army stores and garage sales, to see what people get rid of.
4. My house is humble and looks lived in. I hate when you go to someone's house and there is nothing to look at. Its like where is your stuff? I know you have "stuff" somewhere. It makes me feel uncomfortable in a house like that. Its like they have something to hide.
3. One of my girlfriends and I have always said that we want to write a book for Men about what women really want. Someday we will...
2. As I get older, the less tolerant I get of others.
1. Someday when I am old and my children are grown, I will join the peace corp.