Monday, November 5, 2012

Bucket List Cross off

Well the likeliness of the Detroit Tigers making it to the World Series was a possibly when we were playing the Yankees. My husband said to me "if they make it to the world series, I'd like to try and get tickets." My thought on the whole idea was a little negative. First off, how were we going to be able to afford the tickets and secondly, would I even be able to get any. The morning of the sale I logged onto 2 computers. I was put into a "virtual waiting room" and alas my computer beeped...I was in. My heart was racing with anticiptaion! I chose 2 tickets and got an error. 2 tickets were unavailable. I tried to back out and got booted from the waiting room. So I tried again and got in again! This time I chose 2 tickets, best available. Nothing! Then I tried 3 tickets and voila, I was able to buy tickets. I didn't need 3 tickets, but I didn't want to risk getting booted out of the system again. Sadly our poor Detroit Tigers didn't win the world series or even win a GAME in the series, but it was still a chance of a lifetime. Here are a few pictures of my husband and I at the game.
So excited to be at the World Series October 28th, 2012!
Damn was it cold! 43 degrees, windy and rainy!
After the loss...our sad pouty faces

Monday, October 22, 2012

Trying to start a family...

I have been married for a little over a year now and the desire to start a family is overwhelming. My husband is wonderful! He would make such and awesome dad someday. We have been trying for the year to get pregnant, but nothing has happened. I hear my little ovary clock tick tocking away everyday. I want nothing more than to be a mom. As I get older, the madness gets worse. Its almost all that I think consumes me. I have heard many people tell me to relax and to not think about it and it will just "happen". What if it doesn't? I'll be 40 before I know it and to me that is the cut off. Tick tock...I have 2 1/2 years left. Its so hard to turn off your brain and just try and let things happen. I will never forgive my EX for stealing my best baby making years from me. It is one thing I will NEVER forgive him for. Even though in hindsight, things didn't work out between us and would have likely been an terrible father, I am still bitter about losing all of that precious time! I never wanted anything more than a family and I am sure he knew that he would never be ready...and for that I will never forgive.

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

A rough end to 2011

Well I had a rough end to 2011 and have been dealing with some health issues.
In November I was diagnosed with Basal Cell Carcinoma on my right cheek. Skin cancer? At 36? Really? Could I have any more worse luck. Wasn't enough to have pre-melanoma 5 years ago?
Being blonde haired, blue eyed and fair skinned is the pits sometimes. I have no idea what Hilter was thinking when he was saying that this is the perfect race. It has given me nothing but trouble. I burn so easily in the sun, my eyes water when its bright outside and my skin is also super sensitive to everything!
The spot on my face started out as nothing super spectacular. It looked like a pimple that wouldn't pop or go away (this spot has been there for a number of years now). Earlier in 2011, it changed shape a little and I headed to the dermatologist to get it checked out. He thought it looked like a cyst and was treating with freezing it. It would burn when he did it, scab over and then not change. After 2 freezing and no results, it was biopsied. My derm was skepitcal that it was anything serious, so it made me feel better and I didn't worry about it. After a week not hearing anything, I forgot about the test results. Surprise...I was called to come in. It was Skin Cancer...and my derm couldn't do anything about it in his office and refered me to another Dr.
Dr. Stiff was awesome. He is also a dermatologist, but couldn't get me in until early december. So on December 3rd, the misery began. I had to have MOHS surgery on my face. Its a local anestethic, with old fashioned lidocaine and a scapel, the only difference is, the derm is trained to look at the tissue under a microscope and decide if more skin needs to be taken in order to get all of the cancer. The surgery went well and I had a huge hole in my face.

Sunday, January 1, 2012


Well I recently found out that I had Skin Cancer. I have had a spot on my cheek for about 5 years. It started out as just a small spot, similar to a pimple that wouldn't pop. I saw my dermatologist and thought it was a cyst and he lanced it and I was on my way. It never went away, but it wasn't something that seemed to be so obvious or even that noticeable, so I let it be. In the past year, it seemed to change. It got larger and seemed to turn inward and develop a perfect circular ring around it. I went to my dermatologist again, he thought it looked suspicious and starting freezing the area. It would scab over and peel off, still nothing. In November this year, he took a biopsy of the area, the result: basal cell carcinoma. I panicked. He told me this wasn't something he could do in his office and referred me to Dr. Stiff. Dr. Stiff is a Mohs trained dermatologist. Mohs surgery is basically microscopic surgery. They removed the area with a scapel and review it under a microscope to see if they got all of the cells. If they didn't they go back in and take more and more again if they need to. He was a great Doctor, but unfortunately, I am now left with a Large hole (or crater) in my cheek. But the good news is I am now Basal Cell Carcinoma free. yay!