Not so Happy Mothers day

Yesterday was Mother's Day and it is a awful reminder for me that I am not a mother...and it frustrates me.   All around me everyone is celebrating mom and how awesome being a mom is...if I only knew what that felt like.  Right now it feels like a stab in the gut and a twist of a knife...if only.  Everywhere at work lay co workers are preggers and I am trying to feel happy and excited for them because for a few of them this is their first baby...I wish I was one of them.