Falling...

Man I am falling hard. It all feels so wonderful.
We had date #2 last night and it was fabulous. It feels so right...how well we click. I know it is moving so fast, but I am seruiosly crushing on this new mystery man in my life. I can't wait to see him again!
Who knew I could be so happy?

Gooey

So I am all gooey inside thinking about the date that I have tonight...yes that's right I said tonight. We are both so curious about one another, we couldn't wait to see each other in person until Friday.
I totally forgot about how "gooey" feels and its so bizzare. Its definitely a good thing, but it takes some getting used to. I've spent years all closed up inside, I don't even remember the "gooey".
I am so excited to meet him, I can't even explain it.
Wish me luck!

On the scene

The Dating scene that is. I have a date on Friday. I am very nervous, but also very excited about it.
Who knew I'd meet someone on a yahoo personal's ad. We have had some great/late night conversations since we "met", per se. From the converations we have had, he is very witty and very easy to talk to. I hope I don't get the first date jitters when we meet. Man oh man, it has been so long since I've gone on a date, I don't know if I am even sure what to do.
I told some of the people that I work with at the restaurant that I have a date and all of the younger girls wanted to give me a make-over. It was so funny.
I never thought there was someone out there who liked vegetables less than I do.

I am so loved

My family is awesome. I can't even express how grateful and overwhelmed with gratitude I am feeling. People can surprise you when you least expect it.
My grandparents, my aunt and my folks have all been doing a stellar job at helping me out tremendously in this "crappy" time in my life at the moment. I'd be lost without them.
You all rock!!!

I see bad people

Cancer (6/22-7/22)It's a good day for you to separate the good people in your life from the bad ones.

Well isn't that the truth! Peace out all you bad people. I need a new start, LOL.

Once I get him out of my head...I'll be golden

I am actually doing quite well...when I don't have Chris on the brain.
My solution, is really quite simple...a who cares attitude.
Who cares what he is doing?
Who cares where he has been?
Who cares what he is spending money on?
Who cares who he is with?

I has been working well for the past few weeks. I am gonna stick with it.

I can't make someone WANT to be with me and why should I? Why should I torture myself?

I am so much better than this.

I guess it takes 24 hours

For some really funny thoughts to set in because as I think about what happened to me yesterday, it really cracks me up.
So ya know you go in for a chek-up at the Dr. and they ask you questions about your life and your family, blah blah blah. Well I told the Dr. about what was going on in my life and she was genuinely interested. We talked about men in general and a few laughs. Then she says...well you know, you don't need a husband to have a baby, we can do an artificial insemination with an anonymous donor. You seem like a bright girl with a good head on your shoulders, if you don't find a man in a few years, think about it.
Cracks me up to think about it still. I love my Dr., she is so funny.

I had a GREAT day

Despite having to go and see the scoot scoot Dr and having a 10 hour clinical, I had a great day today.
It started with scoot scoot actually when they told me that I had lost 24 pounds...since my last visit which was Dec. of 2006. Whoop, whoop, go me!
Then I asked them for some samples of BC since I am going to lose/change insurance companies and my Dr. told me that she didn't samples of my current prescription, but could give me samples of another one and also wrote me a new script, which I might add can be filled at Walmart or Kroger for $9 w/o insurance...how cool is that! YAY!
I also got my new glasses, which are super sassy check them out!

And since I could never get a pair of BIG sunglasses without a prescription...I splurged and got these Paris wannabe's. I feel like a fly...but they are awesome!

My future ex-inlaws

Why is so much easier to talk to them than it is my husband...?
I was working last night and Chris' mom, stepdad and grandma all came in for dinner. I was already cut off of the floor, so I didn't have to wait on them. Sadly...we don't see them that much and they had no idea that I even worked there.
It was nice to see them, but kind of an awkward weird at the same time.
They asked my about school and what I am planning on doing. When they were leaving...and I was leaving his grandma came up to me and gave me hug and told me not to forget about them. It made me want to cry...it still does when I think about.
I'll miss them.

Bring on Spring

Well we are getting a tease today of some warmer weather and I seriously can't wait.
I want to get outside.
I want to ride my bike, go far a walk or sit on the porch. I want to BBQ, go to the park, see a ball game, an outdoor concert and relax. Its so hard to relax when its cold out. Why is that?
I ordered 3 books from Amazon today...I can't wait to have a chance to read them, if I can escape the reading of my Nursing books for a few days. UGH...I can't wait for July, I really need 2 months off!

Dork Face

So I went to the dermatologist today to take care of all of the Dr. appts I will need to take care of before I lose/switch insurance. And I got some skin tags frozen off and I had him look at this white bump that I had on my face. Well apparently I had a cyst on my face which he took a razor like blade to and sliced opened and drain it. OUCH!! I also had all of the skin tags frozen off with this spray stuff, which gave me hives after it was over.
So not only did it look like I had chicken pox, but I had a goofy ass face all day.
Here take a look.
ROFL.

If you look close enough, you can see the red bumps that were all over my neck. I didn't take this pic until about 8 hours later, so the swelling of the freezy stuff had went down immensely.