My future ex-inlaws

Why is so much easier to talk to them than it is my husband...?
I was working last night and Chris' mom, stepdad and grandma all came in for dinner. I was already cut off of the floor, so I didn't have to wait on them. Sadly...we don't see them that much and they had no idea that I even worked there.
It was nice to see them, but kind of an awkward weird at the same time.
They asked my about school and what I am planning on doing. When they were leaving...and I was leaving his grandma came up to me and gave me hug and told me not to forget about them. It made me want to cry...it still does when I think about.
I'll miss them.

Bring on Spring

Well we are getting a tease today of some warmer weather and I seriously can't wait.
I want to get outside.
I want to ride my bike, go far a walk or sit on the porch. I want to BBQ, go to the park, see a ball game, an outdoor concert and relax. Its so hard to relax when its cold out. Why is that?
I ordered 3 books from Amazon today...I can't wait to have a chance to read them, if I can escape the reading of my Nursing books for a few days. UGH...I can't wait for July, I really need 2 months off!

Dork Face

So I went to the dermatologist today to take care of all of the Dr. appts I will need to take care of before I lose/switch insurance. And I got some skin tags frozen off and I had him look at this white bump that I had on my face. Well apparently I had a cyst on my face which he took a razor like blade to and sliced opened and drain it. OUCH!! I also had all of the skin tags frozen off with this spray stuff, which gave me hives after it was over.
So not only did it look like I had chicken pox, but I had a goofy ass face all day.
Here take a look.
ROFL.

If you look close enough, you can see the red bumps that were all over my neck. I didn't take this pic until about 8 hours later, so the swelling of the freezy stuff had went down immensely.

Enlightening...

Cancer (6/22-7/22)You need to restore balance in your social life. How you relax has got to change.

So what should I do tonight? I guess sitting home doing homework is probably not the best idea. Maybe I'll join Tippi and Tori at the bowling alley and hang out with all of the gays...but I really should be doing homework. Such a dilemma.

I don't have an accent!

What American accent do you have? Your Result: The Inland North   You may think you speak "Standard English straight out of the dictionary" but when you step away from the Great Lakes you get asked annoying questions like "Are you from Wisconsin?" or "Are you from Chicago?" Chances are you call carbonated drinks "pop."
The Midland
The Northeast
The South
Philadelphia
North Central
The West
Boston
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What?!

So I like to check my horoscope on a semi-regular basis just to see what it says. And I was surprised at what mine said today...Cancer (6/22-7/22)The emotional intensity and upheaval you've been feeling is getting stronger now.
Does that mean I am getting stronger? Or that the feelings are going to get stronger?
I hope it is that I am getting stronger, because I feel like I am. Hallelujah!

Life in boxes

My life is slowly getting packed in boxes...lots of them.
It makes me sad to think about what these boxes contain, what they mean to me and what the once meant to both of us.
As I look at old photographs of when we were first married, I see it now. How young he was...how different he was. He doesn't even look like the same person, but I love him just the same, even if he broke my heart. That's just how I am, forgiving to a fault to those that I love and unforgiving to those who I don't.
As I pack up each box, I think about what lies ahead for me and right now as bleak as it seems, I do see light at the end of the tunnel. I see a flicker of what might be for me. I see the house with the beautiful garden and a swingset. I see a man who kisses my belly and talks to our unborn child. I see me being happy, in love, working as a nurse and enjoying life to its fullest everyday.
I think about these boxes, that will wait in storage for me. For my new life to begin...a year from now. When I walk across the stage at graduation and stay to myself "I MADE IT". And think to myself...I did without him. I did it with all of the great help from my friends and family. I did it by myself.
The one thing that these boxes do make me realize though right now is...I have a lot of things. Things that weigh me down, but I just can't throw them away, not just yet. They give me comfort, they give me hope and they give me strength. Most of all, they will be put away. Shelved in storage, where I won't have to think about them. I will only have what I need and I will hopefully have a clear head.